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A Trying Tuesday...

I was in such a funk today.  It didn't matter what I did - I just felt low and blue and straight up tired.  Even a brisk walk outside on a GORGEOUS Colorado day still didn't lift my spirits.  I don't know - just had this weird, unsettled feeling all day - almost like I was just WAITING for something to happen.  Oh well...despite a tough day I am still able to write down a few things that made me smile.

- Shop and Drop at the local MyGym - kiddos LOVED it and I enjoyed a quiet hour of shopping with my bestie

- Wonderful reviews from the instructors at MyGym about how much my son watched over and took care of his baby sister - he said they had a "great connection he rarely sees among siblings"

- silly songs and "move it, move it" dancing with the kiddos before bed

Until tomorrow...

Positively,

Kim

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