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Losing it...

I totally lost my shi* tonight.  I wish I could say it was just a little problem that I quickly resolved in a mature, sensible fashion.  Unfortunately, it was a full bowl of soup and a complete dinner pulled off the stove onto the floor with a massive CLUNK.  I did not react calmly, or favorably, and instead simply REACTED.  I screamed, I yelled, I stomped around and made a big scene as I picked it all up.  I wanted to cry.  Instead, after melting down, I looked around and tried to find the upside.  Soup all over the floor?  It's okay - at least there was enough left in the pan for another bowl for Hayden and I didn't have to completely restart dinner.  Mommy meltdown mode in overdrive?  It's alright - I settled down quickly, picked up where I left off and just moved on with the night.
I really think doing this blog is helping me.  Normally, an evening like this would have set me into a downward spiral - the rest of the night would have been ruined not just for me but for the kids and hubby as well.  Instead, I took a minute to THINK about whether I reacted properly (nope) and if it was worth all the fuss (nope) and made the CONSCIOUS  DECISION to just let go, find the positive, and move on.

On that note...



this little girl - the one who dumped the dinner and could have ruined the night - was instead what pulled me through.  She's an adorable, mischievous, never ending handful of trouble - and I'm thankful EVERYDAY that she is mine.

Until tomorrow...

Positively,

Kim

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