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Sometimes it's hard...

I had a rude awakening yesterday.  I did something that was completely selfish, inconsiderate and straight up thoughtless.  And it hurt someone I care about.
I felt terrible.  Actually, terrible is an understatement.  I really can't put into words how I felt...mostly ashamed and embarrassed and truly disappointed in myself.  I had an awful time sleeping because I could not stop thinking about it.  It was not deliberate - and in fact I thought nothing of it after it happened - but my thoughtlessness didn't change the fact that my actions made someone cry.
I was trying to be funny in my snarky way and it backfired.  This, unfortunately, was not the first time that my attempt at humor completely failed.  Looking over the last 20 years of my life illustrates this point again and again.  I THINK I'm being funny - and light hearted - and maybe a little snippy in my Kim-like way - and I find out that my words HURT.  It's a bitter pill to swallow...but I know this happened for a reason.
I started this blog because I want to be a better, more positive person.  Yesterdays incident shows me I still have a long, long way to go...but I'm learning.   Everyday I take another step towards the person I want to be...and I want to thank you for sticking by me and helping me along the way.  Today, I am thankful for:

- forgiveness

- striving to be a better person even though it can be SO HARD

- my friends and family that love me even when I F*** things up

- FINALLY FRIDAY

Until tomorrow...

Positively,

Kim

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