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How Did I Get Here?

Well, it's been a while.  A lot has happened since last December.  Among other things, I left a job, accepted a job, lost a job, and acquired a new job - albeit unpaid.  I am now officially a Stay at Home Mom (SAHM).

This is what SAHM's do during the day.
Yikes!  This was NOT in my game plan and is definitely NOT my long term goal - but I'm trying to make the best of it.  After all - it is summer - and we have a pool membership - so it could be worse.  Did I mention said pool also has a bar?  It's getting better and better. :-)

So after the initial freak out (OMG WHAT ARE WE GOING TO DO?) I started counting dollars, contacting unemployment and developing a plan.  I am optimistic it will turn out fine.  Maybe even better than fine.  I'm actually kinda lucky, ya know?

My hubby has a good job - and that in itself is a blessing. We will all still be insured and he will still be working hard (like he always has) to bring home the proverbial bacon (veggie in his case).

Aww - I love my bacon bringer!
I get to spend the summer with my kids.  Yes - that is a mixed bag - but for better or worse they are growing up way too fast.  This is a chance for me to watch Hayden as he practices his swim strokes, and be right by his side as he falls in love with reading, excitedly telling me about the book he read in only 4 days that was 140 pages long!  He is so proud of himself and I can't help but be proud of him too - everyday he becomes something new - bigger - better - and I'm happy to be there to witness the transformation.

One cool dude.
Harlyn is growing too.  She seems to get spunkier every day.  Her little personality is just starting to come through and it's amazing.  We've spent less time together than I'd like - she's been in daycare a lot more than Hayden ever was at her age - and I've felt the guilt.   So this is a wonderful opportunity for me to find a new common ground with her.  I've already realized she is 100% girl - she loves to shop, get her nails done, and most importantly, change her mind at least a million times (Shania Twain was right) - and some days she tries my patience more than I care to admit - but she is ALL mine.

You can see the mischief in her smile.
So - we're growing together - and I hope by the time I am back in the working world as a paid employee - I can be confident that the time spent was worth the sacrifice.  I'm already sure it will be - there is no value on priceless.

Positively,

Kim

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