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Tired times two...

Well, the baby isn't any better.  In fact she got a bit worse between Monday and today.  The doctor is still trying to keep her out of the hospital which I really appreciate - however - being caregiver, mommy, full time employee as well as wife have completely exhausted me.  I need a major nap and some serious downtime but I don't see either on the horizon.

I guess I am lucky though.  This is a temporary situation - my baby will get better - be off oxygen and breathing treatments - and life will return to its own little normal.  I realized today that there are parents out there whose LIVES revolve around these things - that their children won't get better - and it both humbles and amazes me.  I'm  humbled because I can't help but think - OMG - this is SO DAMN HARD right now - how in the world do these parents of sick/disabled kids ever make it?  I'm two days in and ready to throw in the towel - but for them - this IS their normal.  I am amazed and just in awe of those parents - what truly special, patient people - I could only hope to have a portion of their strength.

Until tomorrow...

Positively,

Kim

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