I can't believe the last time I added to this blog was May 2013.
Several years ago when I started Positively Mom Street I made a promise to myself to write everyday. Everyday soon turned into once a week, then once a month - and now here we are - barely checking in handful of times a year!
Ahh...I guess life happens. The saddest part for me is this is a record of my family - one not ravaged by time and my ever flaky memory. First resolution for 2014 - make more of an effort to capture the days before it's too late.
So - that out of the way - it was quite a year! I started a new job, left said new job, and started another new job. I am happy to report this one looks like a keeper!! :-) Constantly acquiring and departing employment is exhausting. However, despite the ups and downs I've tried hard to find the value in my experiences. My biggest take-away from "Job Hunt 2013" is - listen to your gut. While I did not want to admit it, I knew early on (by March 2013) that the role I accepted in January was NOT a good fit for me. But I was afraid to start over, afraid of failure, of judgement, of trying AGAIN only to fail AGAIN. Overall - I was just scared.
Sometimes fear is so powerful it can paralyze. I spent the last 6 weeks of that job trying to convince myself I could make it through. Maybe it wasn't THAT bad. However, when I started waking up every morning with intense stomach pains I knew something had to give. When I was told that in order to "meet expectation" I needed to start traveling a minimum of one week out of each month - my fear gave way to straight up anger and resentment. It was time to move on. So, I did. I gathered up my courage, walked into HR and said what I needed to say. Then I left and have not looked back. It was terrifying and liberating and the most intense thing I have ever done. I feel like I came full circle in just a few short months but in a good way. I regained my confidence and put myself on a path to happiness. And it worked. :-) I was super lucky to find a new job in less than one month and it's a much better fit. I love my new work, I am challenged but not overburdened and feel like I am finally in the right place.
So...that's all for now. I plan to write another blog or two in the next week to go over all the amazing things that my kiddos did this year - and not to brag - but they were pretty incredible for a 4 and 9 year old. Mommy pride aside - my kids are fantastic.